Causations for #1

First I'd like to probe deeper into the causations.

1. -Not good at it.
-Weak Mind/Determination

2. -Lack of self-confidence
-Knowing from experience that I don't have the ability to establish a conversation with pretty girls.
-Afraid that the conversation touches the area where I have no knowledge of.
-I don't have any pretty female friends.

3. -Weak Mind/Determination
-Laziness

4. -Weak Mind/Determination
-Degrading ability to do the right things instead of easy things.
-Habit
-Values don't help anymore.

5*. -innate
-Habit

6. -Weak Mind/Determination => Laziness => Procrastination
-Voice #1 saying it's useless.
-I don't LISTEN

7. -Not being able to stand on one side
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8. -Ignorant to the World
-Eye Contact
-I Don't LISTEN
-asking questions without meaning
-Can't say funny stuff

9. -UNKNOWN

11. -this is not urgent, though it sometimes does trouble me.

12. -This I really don't know the reason and can't help.

13. -Without communication
-Ignorant to the World
-starting to think I'm something special

14. -Deteriorating Brain?

15. -same as #2 I guess

16. -Concept not complete, only if it ever would be

17. -Ignorant to the World
-Shy
-Lack of self confidence
-disability in talking with people

18. -UNKNOWN.













I always have a feeling that I gotta think/create/invent/discover something, anything, before I start to become stupid, as I can feel it happening.

I lost the feeling of BELONGING for a long time and I wanna taste it, smell it once again in my life.