#1

To begin with, I'd like to list out all the problems I think I have. I have to be extremely honest to myself.

1. Lack of Sport
2. scared to death in front of pretty girls.
3. Procrastination
4. Laziness
5. Weak Mind/Determination
6. Ignorant to the outside world
7. Having two voices fighting against each other all the time => can't speak most of the time
8. Having problem talking to people, i.e. no topics, afraid of losing their attention.
9. Slow Thinking, and it's getting even slower.
10. awareness of the big loophole in my personality troubles me all the time, and I don't know yet how to tackle it.
11. I want to believe in God, but at the same time another voice urge me to insist on evidence.
12. Immature.
13. Self-centered.
14. Keep forgetting things.
15. Shy.
16. Philosophy troubles me.
17. feeling alone.
18. Not knowing my place/role in this world.